Wednesday, April 22, 2009

S.W.T

He was my s.w.t –(sexy without trying)

I was his d.d.g – (drop dead gorgeous)

I was his Bonny

He was my Clyde

If he was archilles

Then I was his “archilles heel”

I was his Jada

He was my Will

I was his Juliet

He was my Romeo

.......fast forward to the present......

Text message:-“ U told T’s friend I was desperate 2 come to your house:-that was cruel.
U put our conversations on speaker:-that was low.I dont really think I knew you.

Excuse me boss you have a text message

“My world does not revolve around what people think of me.I cant remember putting our conversation on speaker@anytym,I told him u wanted to come 2 collect T’s cheque & even said u would come with ur boyfriend.my 1st year at my workplace I was being crucified as the relationship breaker by this friend& i neva confronted you abt it,when ur boyfriend called,dis friend was with me& i said to him, I neva came in the way of his relationhip.What a way to let me know ur around.Pls focus ur aggression someplace else.

Now to a brief preamble which would help in understanding this post

REMEMBER THE DEMON,remember my Bro post,remember a post where I was woken up in the middle of the nite confronted with a txt I sent& received....it was all the demon. Last time I spoke/communicated with the demon was 2 and half yrs ago.....boyfriend and I which was being referred to were having serious problems cos of the demon...I was still in love with him..Boyfriend actually called the demon.....said the demon said I was the one still contacting him, ...(this wasnt true btw )tht we had broken up...,he was contacting me too, though he made more of an effort to move on than i did...he also had a girlfriend.Funny I didnt realise I was in love with the demon till I started dating boyfriend....BOYFRIEND AND I even got engaged even though I realised later I still had feelings for the demon.....theres a lot of bitterness cos it involves my brother....he lost his friendship with my brother when everything blew open cos I’m very close to T SO i TOLD HIM everything EVENTUALLY WHEN it was all over.cos we kept lying to T tht we didnt have anythn goin on.Ironocally T introduced us unknowingly but did not want us to have anythn to do with each oda but we had opened pandora’s box.T’S friend is his colleague at his current work place and also happens to be BOYFRIEND’S VERY CLOSE FRIEND.The last gist that broke the camel’s back was Boyfriend actually telling me tht T’s and his mutual friend said he put our conversations on speaker and he said I was desperate to come to his house even after we stopped seeing.I neva confronted the demon for a year since I heard , it helped to hate him and forget about him,until now...which brought the txt messages.
In conclusion,

All I feel now is this DIDO’S SONG

See u when u’re forty-actual title of the song incase u wana listen to it.
I’ll highlight the relevant portion of the songs with a lil explanation

Idrove around in circles for 3hrs
It was bound to happen that i’d end up at urs.........then that is,when the love was still sharking me.
I temporary forgot ther’s better days to come
I thought that i’d give it just one more chance....not really,given up on tht long ago
Cos I want tonite wht I’d been waiting for Would I find tonite what I’ve been warned about...... the stuff they said he said/did which led to the txt anyways
You think u are complicated,deep mystery to hold
Well its taken me a while to see u’re not so special....pretty much wht i feel now
....fast forward the lyrics to
So see u when ur forty...lost and all alone....frankly thts wht i wish him
Being comforted by strangers who never needed to know,not sad cos u lost me>...more like i lost him
Sad because you thot it was cool to be sad
You think that misery will make you stand apart from the crowd....as in causing me misery cos i’m not sure if he’s miserable...thou i wish
If you had walked past me today,I wouldnt have picked you out...he claimed he saw me recently in one of his earlier txts and tot i saw him but i swear i didnt.....so I wouldnt have picked him out
Now i’ve seen tonite,how could i waste my time.......waste my time sending tht txt in the first place.
Cos i’ve seen tonite ur just a boy, not a man.......his response.........very childishAnd i’m not coming back.......yep

28 comments:

Ms. SpicyTee said...

Yipeeeeeeeeeee.. First..I'm d first..rolling o da floor.

Qube The Wordsmith said...

Wats wrong wiv u dat u r rollin eh? mscheeewww

Babe forget d bugger yeah...conc on ur BF n live ur life like its golden

RocNaija said...

Lol.. @ Ms. SpicyTee..

No stain your clothe..

Make I go read..

K said...

Dude...men are a problem, complicated to say the least and worse when they try to confuse you because they know how you feel about them.

kmplx said...

he's not even worth it... dido his behind outta there!

RocNaija said...

Lol.. Man issues.. Pele omoge to dunHe's obviously intent on messing with you and your head.. hence his comment when you man called him..

RocNaija said...

Pity it involved your brother though..

It's obvious you're still very bitter about how things were between both of you..

Somehow.. some way.. you need to get rid of the negative emotions.. and move forward..

Putting conversations on speaker without the other person's knowledge is just callous..
But exchanging words with him will never help..

RocNaija said...

Music therapy works for me too sometimes..

Go on soun

tara douglas said...

Make sure you marry someone who loves you not someone you like. someone you can imagine gisting with 40 years down the road. Don't make it a contract thing o.
love the honesty on ur blog

miz-cynic said...

@spicy:-omo why u dey roll on the floor now, on top of tht u no even read!pshewww...common get up from tht floor and go and read.

@qube:unfortunately , i lost the bf already...he got married sunday....but i never really loved him like i should so no biggie

@ roc:-i like ur epistle comments...very factual and still sympathetic,iv tried to let go of the bitterness.....just like i have let the love go...tht was easy....after all the nonsense....i got pissed...thts how i get over relationships by the way...bt i cant let go of the bitterness cos each time i remember i feel so stupid.hv u read the bro! post?

@k:-funny i can swear tht he's a "tell it as it is person"...from wht i knew of him...mayb thts why i liked him so much...so i cants fathom why he cant do tht in this case...be truthful!

@kmplx:-funny, we both joked tht we loved tht song so much tht it'll be our break up song with someone we loved so much but dumped us or we couldnt have ....we hd a dido song too..."here with me"...tht was our song.

@tara:-i would nt be taking all of tht advice cos i know myself.....if i dont love you back like u love me...i'll treat u bad and shortchange u....and probably cheat on you...so i have to love u not only like u...tht was why i broke off my engagement at the last minute.even though the guy was quite a catch and very decent

RocNaija said...

Haven't read the bro post..

Can't find the link..

bumight said...

babe, im thoroughly confused!

I think i'll have to reread this...and maybe go into the archives sef!

TDVA said...

wow, u need to get him out of your life. exes that cause pain and bitterness and absolutely not necessary. glad to see you are staying strong. hang in there dearie.

Nice Anon said...

Demon needs to leave you alone and move on with his gf. Shey he has one now? Let him focus on her.

With time you will completely move on. Hang on dear.

Writefreak said...

Wish it hadn't involved your brother...some guys are not worth the wahala jo!

Ms. SpicyTee said...

Ahan..han why are u guys mocking me now.. It just feel so good to be first on Cynic blog..LOL Qube..take time oh...

@ Miz-Cynic...Brothers don't like anyone they knows messing up with their il sister. I have 7 brothers and they've been on my neck since I started growing breast..LOL

Anyway just dicth this guy. I snot good for you. The guy doesn't worth your trouble babes.

~Sirius~ said...

wow.........
I have to re read to digest properly.

I see what you meant by your comment on mine.

Be easy girl

Anonymous said...

confused...couldnt finish the post!everything was everywhere!!will come back and read the juicy details when i have time

jhazmyn said...

Messy break ups that leave us bitter huh? girl, like roc said, u've got to let go the bitterness. It totally aint worth it cos guy has moved on and ur lettin ur pretty head get all messed up.
pshewww...double pshewww ...and even tripple pshewww to all his crap.
So get ur-self all freed up and re-juvenated for that new hunk coming your way and embrace the new thing with no sour taste from the past cos that's what u deserve...BTW didnt find the bro link

doll said...

just try to get closure somehow

JoanPeck said...

Hilarious!!! Really feeling the beat and luvin' it... lol!!!

miz-cynic said...

@roc:-u have now read it se?
@bumight:-sorry i can b disorganised like tht sometimes but some pple got it
@tdva:-yes o. i don danu bii omi isanwo
@nice anon:-now u are actually "nice" anon.except ur no longer anonymous
@writefreak:-it pained me nore sef cos my bro warned me
@ms spicytee:-so u finally got up to comment,bravo!yes o my bro that will lie to me when i was in my early teens that he welcomes my guy friends warmly only tht when i see them they say otherwise,well me i chose to believe my brother sha!.lol.
@sirius:-yes o go and digesat properly

Naughty Eyes said...

The post was a tad confusing at first because I couldn't find the Demon link. Anyways, I think Roc said almost everything I would have wanted to say.
Hope I'm not wrong in saying this but do I still sense a bit of animosity towards all the parties involved? It might take time but the best thing is to let it all go.
It took me almost 4 years to take my own advice but I'm much better now...

miz-cynic said...

anonymous:-ur welcome here anytime , i was once an anonymous on some pple's blogs

@jhazmyn:-i couldnt have tot we would even end up togeda not to talk of messy break-up

@DOLL:-i dont need closure......i agree with funms on tht one

@joaan peck:-if ur taking about b the song then its all good

@naughty eyes:-its a closed chapter jare.thanks, was at urs
so u love our laide

ibiluv said...

this too shall pass.........

aloted said...

its either am slow or its that time of the day but i didnt quite get the gist...though wat i concluded is that demon is misbehaving?

so hope things are cool with the boyfy and no more feelings for demon?

miz-cynic said...

@ibiluv:-siste, e don even pass already.amina ya robi.lol.

@aloted:-u try my sis,,,,except it was all in the past.

Buttercup said...

glad u moved on..thats all that matters now..